Hi Mom

Hi mommy, it's my first time talking to you since your passing. I can't believe that it has been only 16 days since I lost you. I feel so much different emotions from good to bad, I feel a bit lost, but I am trying to survive because I know that you would want me to. I miss you so much but I am glad that you are not in pain anymore. I hope that there is a heaven and a God and that you are enjoying yourself and happy.

I don't know if you know what is going on here, but there is this terrible virus from China that is making a lot of people really sick and some are even dying. That is why we have not had a chance to have your memorial and it makes me sad and angry, but I came up with an idea that as soon as I get your ashes we will do a small gathering for you until we can have your actual memorial and put you in your final place. I picked a spot by the river, I know you would love it.

I'm doing well in school, I dropped to part-time and won't graduate until later this year, but I'm still working on it. I will make you proud. I'm seeing a grief counselor and another doctor prescribed me meds, I hope they help. On a random note, the apartment next to us is empty don't know who will be moving in.

Good night, I love you so much.